Sunlight Comes through when the Dark Clouds finally move away

Hmm... its not that i didnt have anything to talk about in the past months.. the truth is that there was tooo much to talk about.. and i feared that if i hadnt realised it by now.. then me writing it down would make it permanent.. I thought i would to hurt to come back from it.. thought i could never come back from it.. scarred for life..

Then again.. my BFFs have the most perfect timing... i ws crumbling.. crashing.. thats when they both surprise me... fi n gis.. "2 people" who keep me alive... everyday with them made me understand that no matter what... they wont look at me with contempt... i know.. there wont be anyone like them.. i "love" them..

By the way i have decided i shall not make plans... Making plans is like building a castle of cards... i "tiny" draft... and evrything crashes around you.. but as humans... we have this tendency of building it all over again.. even when we know that its just time before it collapse again... but do we learn our lesson and stop??.. Hell no!.. Rather if we just stop for a while look back.. just one second to try and understand what went wrong.. instead of making the same mistake over and over.. we might have a chance at "being happie"..

"And for you.. who makes me who i am... I owe this.. you mean a lot... I realised you nw... Better late than never.. "

I do regret my mistakes... but i know now that without those mistakes..I wont b who i am nw.. lets just say i got convinced.. ;)

Ohhh i m travelling to india in 4days!! yayyy!!!

Well... "I am finally Happy !! really really Happy!"

Kate :)

Too Lost For Words!

I keeping promisin to write more often.. but i just dont keep my promises.. :P .. its beeen out 4 months since i last wrote... not that i was planin to kill of the blog.. just that life has been too fast.... (This post is specially for Fifi.. somthn fr her to read :) )

Anyway... well christmas n new year passed happily... i had a one month winter break frm.. though the holidays wer so borin.. n it made me miss collg n my frnds so bad.. evn it reopened my sleep timings wer so messed up that i found myself dozin of in class.. jus imagin the first row.. n that too in a small class.. *phew* i din get caught... neway i did really well in my first semester.. i heard this sem is gona b a bitch.. bt i m willing to take the challenge... i m glad to hav my amazing frnds... they stick up fr me always... n ofcourse vice versa....

i bearly stay home nw.. i hang out a lot with my frnds.. i strted teachin Sunday school( Bible classes).. i teeach pre kg kids.. cute lil things.. half of them don evn knw their names.. :P its tiring.. bt fun.. Shocking rite..lol.. my classmates keep askin me if i m teachin the kids to smoke weed.. :P

Now back to all the drama.. I do wish that i coud go back in time n fix a few things... but then again if i do that then i wont end up here... wont end up wid my frnds... evrything is happening so fast that i don have words to describe hw i feel.. i get moody damn fast...
 
As always its those annoyin ups n downs... u knw.. there is a time wen u hate somthn or someone soo much.. n then u love that somthn or somone more than that.. n u regret spreading the hate.. well that happens to me evry single time...

there is this question in my head always... tormenting me... "What the Hell are u doing??"... n i hav NO answer to that watsoevr..

i have come to a point of no return... i don care much nemore.. or mayb i jus think tat i don care muj nemore.. too muj on my mind.. i hope i survive wid jus a few scratches n no permanent damage...

what i 'want' is right in front of me... but i jus cant take it... cz what i 'wanted' still haunts me...

Kate :)