Sunlight Comes through when the Dark Clouds finally move away

Hmm... its not that i didnt have anything to talk about in the past months.. the truth is that there was tooo much to talk about.. and i feared that if i hadnt realised it by now.. then me writing it down would make it permanent.. I thought i would to hurt to come back from it.. thought i could never come back from it.. scarred for life..

Then again.. my BFFs have the most perfect timing... i ws crumbling.. crashing.. thats when they both surprise me... fi n gis.. "2 people" who keep me alive... everyday with them made me understand that no matter what... they wont look at me with contempt... i know.. there wont be anyone like them.. i "love" them..

By the way i have decided i shall not make plans... Making plans is like building a castle of cards... i "tiny" draft... and evrything crashes around you.. but as humans... we have this tendency of building it all over again.. even when we know that its just time before it collapse again... but do we learn our lesson and stop??.. Hell no!.. Rather if we just stop for a while look back.. just one second to try and understand what went wrong.. instead of making the same mistake over and over.. we might have a chance at "being happie"..

"And for you.. who makes me who i am... I owe this.. you mean a lot... I realised you nw... Better late than never.. "

I do regret my mistakes... but i know now that without those mistakes..I wont b who i am nw.. lets just say i got convinced.. ;)

Ohhh i m travelling to india in 4days!! yayyy!!!

Well... "I am finally Happy !! really really Happy!"

Kate :)

Too Lost For Words!

I keeping promisin to write more often.. but i just dont keep my promises.. :P .. its beeen out 4 months since i last wrote... not that i was planin to kill of the blog.. just that life has been too fast.... (This post is specially for Fifi.. somthn fr her to read :) )

Anyway... well christmas n new year passed happily... i had a one month winter break frm.. though the holidays wer so borin.. n it made me miss collg n my frnds so bad.. evn it reopened my sleep timings wer so messed up that i found myself dozin of in class.. jus imagin the first row.. n that too in a small class.. *phew* i din get caught... neway i did really well in my first semester.. i heard this sem is gona b a bitch.. bt i m willing to take the challenge... i m glad to hav my amazing frnds... they stick up fr me always... n ofcourse vice versa....

i bearly stay home nw.. i hang out a lot with my frnds.. i strted teachin Sunday school( Bible classes).. i teeach pre kg kids.. cute lil things.. half of them don evn knw their names.. :P its tiring.. bt fun.. Shocking rite..lol.. my classmates keep askin me if i m teachin the kids to smoke weed.. :P

Now back to all the drama.. I do wish that i coud go back in time n fix a few things... but then again if i do that then i wont end up here... wont end up wid my frnds... evrything is happening so fast that i don have words to describe hw i feel.. i get moody damn fast...
 
As always its those annoyin ups n downs... u knw.. there is a time wen u hate somthn or someone soo much.. n then u love that somthn or somone more than that.. n u regret spreading the hate.. well that happens to me evry single time...

there is this question in my head always... tormenting me... "What the Hell are u doing??"... n i hav NO answer to that watsoevr..

i have come to a point of no return... i don care much nemore.. or mayb i jus think tat i don care muj nemore.. too muj on my mind.. i hope i survive wid jus a few scratches n no permanent damage...

what i 'want' is right in front of me... but i jus cant take it... cz what i 'wanted' still haunts me...

Kate :)

Everything happens for a reason

 For a whole month, my friend Christina was in Kuwait... v used to go out like evry single day.. beach .. movies... evrywer!... v watched Real Steel.. i ws initially worried that Chris woudn like the movie.. bt she loved it!!... :) it ws a movie with a lot of meaning.. its not the size that matters..

I love my classmates in collg!!.... they r amazin ppl... well atleast most of them :P.. bt who cares bout the others... i hav got 2 amazin frnds.. Duda n Fajer.. sometimes I feel like v wer destined to meet... they r always der to lift my sprirts wen i m low.. make my smile wen i m sad... n shout at me wen i screw up... n yes Habibi.. hw coud i frgt him.. :P  i love em!.. they remind me soo much of Fifi n Gigi... n my granpaa.. :D I do hav oder frnds who love to annoy me.. bt if i strt writin then i wont stop!

"I seldom end up where I wanted to go, but almost always end up where I need to be."

I am sure that this is pretty much the case for evryone... the reason i wanted to stay back in Kuwait is fading away... i am disappointed.. i am hurt.. But as i say evry single time "Everything happens for a reason".. this reason is becoming clearer n clearer.. n m looking forward to evry single adventure.. evry new thing.. evry up n down that this life will take me... only coz i knw m worth it... i knw i deserve the best... i hav the best of frnds..

For the rest of them.. FO.. u rnt my frnd coz u don deserve to b... i ll just let u be the way u r... cz m sure karma will knock u down to ur knees...

Kate

Life is all bout Adjustments

Its my Third day at collg... first day.. i ws damn lonely n i missed my frnds.. nt tat i don miss em nw.. its just that it was the first day .. n kinda got overwhelmed by all the new faces.. bt the second day i was btr off.. n well as for today.. my first lecture is over... n it ws good.. xcept for the fact that i m sleepy..

wat i love bout the campus is that.. it is xactly hw i wanted my camous to be.. an international campus... carpeted floors.. clean toilets... awesome classrooms.. amazin labs.. n the vry pride in belongin to such a campus... bt again.. evrythin has its downside.. in my case.. MY FRIENDS.. one of a kind ppl... ppl infrnt of whom.. i coud b the real crazy me!!!

Kate

Starting all over again!!

I had my college orientation today... it ws awesome!!!.. i m soo lookin forward to spendin the next 4 yrs there.. i do  miss my friends n somtimes i wish i coud be with them.. but fortunately i get to evryone of them when they come to kuwait!! and the challenge of makin new friends when there is just another Indian in the whole class is quite exciting...  :)

And the college supports a wide range of clubs and groups.. i m already proud to be a part of it!!.. i m sure that there will b lots of exciting days coming soon!!.. n i love the time table.. i gt holidays 3 days a week!!!.. n jus 2 classes per day!!!.. yipeeeeee :D

Kate

Gist of it all!!

OMG!!! i hav forgotten how my blog looks!! no.. i havent been neglecting it.. well, not exactly... i had been quite busy.. n a lil lazy (umm.. myb more than a lil)....

Like i said i had gone to India..my frnds n i had an amazin time.. though Maya had spend just one day wid us.. coz her classes had strted.. Amal n i had gotten hyper..  v watched a couple of movies toghtr.. smurf ws fun.. n Final destination 5!!.. boy i cant imagine hw to tell u hw tat ws!!.. v wer soo freaked.. v wer lookin thru under the 3D glasses.. n at one point i out my hair in front of my face.. !!
went to mysore on a road trip.. had an amazin time... timeless art n architecture..
n the oder perk bout being der was i coud message my besties netime for free.. :D.. i miss em. :'(
n i also travelled alone for the first time.. n i was sick all thru the journey.. n was delayed 9 hours!!!..
oHhhhhhhhhh.. i am a lisenced driver in India!!! n i did to oil paintings.. which ppl said they d buy!!! ^^

aftr comin bak here it ws borin as usual.. until my BFF fifi came knockin on the door n surprised the hell outa me.. she ws here jus fr 3 days.. n i miss her.. v wer literally crazy... nw i m waitin fr Chris to come.. in a week... n Gigi in dec!!..
n i went to skool today... met my teachers.. n i slied down.. n straightened my hair.. so i look a lot hotter nw.. :P (jk) ;)

i m lookin forward for collg nw.. n yes i ll update my blog evrytime i gt a chance..

m happy.. :D

Kate

Knock em' down!

Well.. aftr coming out here to India.. i hav been soo busy.. shoppin, visitin.. n yes.. hw coud i frgt.. Driving!!!.. i turned 18 4 days bak so i coud finally go for my learners license test.. n yes i passed.. My driving school is pretty cool.. (ohh that rhymes) v hav 1 day demo.. 2 day theory.. 5 day simulation.. n 10 day road drivin.. i ll hav to appear fr the road test on 25th of aug. the same day i m flyin bak...

the cool thing about India is that u gt to meet relatives u hav only heard of.. i met my cuz .. n she is pretty cool.. v hit it off awesome..

Bt here is wat i m all xcited bout!.. Maya, Amal, her bro.. n myslf went to the mall yestrday.. n v stayed deer till lik 10.. n tats really late fr 3 unsupervised girls to stay bak.. bt v had loads of fun.. n wer hopelesssly stared at.. bt bfr leavin Amal smiled at the guys who wer starin at us.. i din knw wer to look.. so i smiled fr evryone.. :P.. n maya bein a good girl din bothr smilin at all... ^^

V WENT BOwlin!!!!!!!! ohh it  ws jus awesome!!.. i initially had trbl stomachin the fact that i had b makin a fool of myslf.. bt finally gt ovr it... i gt the second highest score.. :D
i miss being wid my frnds.. i can totally b my crazy slf wid em!!!

still smilin!!

Kate